I missed doing this post last week. It’s a post I look forward to writing because it’s the only time I allow myself to focus on the little things that I needlessly stress about and ask myself why I even give them the time of day. It’s easy to lose perspective when there are a million worries running through my brain:
Is it someone’s birthday soon?
Do we have enough milk for tea tonight?
Did I defrost the chicken?
When is my tax up on the car?
Is she annoyed at me for that thing I said?
Why do I get spots in my late twenties?
Am I making a difference?
Do I like where I am?
This madness can consume me if I allow it to but I think just being aware of my thoughts is one step closer to getting better control over them. Yes there are always going to be things to remember and yes I will have a random memory about one time when I was hammered in 2009 that will torment for the rest of my days BUT I can acknowledge the thought and then move on. I am usually a fairly laid back person but when one area of my life is suffering then the small things seem to become larger and more overwhelming. The best thing for me to do in these cases is to remove myself from the chaos and find somewhere quiet to just be for a moment. I have spoken before about the importance of prioritising these moments of solitude because it’s my way of regaining a bit more stability and understanding that it’s all going to be OK. When things are going rough we can have a tendency to focus on the present and lack the foresight needed to understand that it's not permanent. Instead of spending time worrying about things that are out of our control, wouldn’t it be much better to acknowledge them for a second and then brush them off? Wouldn't be much better to give ourselves a break and a moment to appreciate all that we do? Yes, I think so too.
All photos by the lovely Rebecca of A Clothes Horse
And with that in mind, here are a few of the worries I am letting go of this week. Not having a dog This is a fact that makes me sad sometimes but not having a dog also means that I don't have to sit in work feeling guilty all day knowing that my wee furball is lonely. Also means that I don't have to be dragged about in the rain to walk off energy. Still can't wait though. Always forgetting my bag for life I feel like the worst environmentalist in the world when I pull up to the shop and realise that all of my bag-for-life-bags are in that wee hole in the kitchen where we stuff them all. I curse myself every time and buy another one to add to the collection. Cop cars Why do I feel like an instant criminal as soon as I see a cop car? I haven't done a thing wrong but all of a sudden I have an urge to escape from them at the earliest chance. Creeps. My love of bread With the bikini season well and truly here I have given up on the idea of washboard abs and will not be saying goodbye to the carb-filled joy of my heart. Bring on the baguettes. People who play it safe You know those people who pull a ridiculous face when you suggest doing something out of the ordinary? Like when someone asks what you're doing for the weekend and you say that you might go camping which induces a look of pure horror. "Sure it gives it to rain for a half an hour on Saturday!! Are ye mad? Oh no, you wouldn't catch me at that now. Oh no, sure ye'd be drenched in thon rain! No, I will be sitting up in the house there and staying put so I will". Arrgghh!! And that's it for this week! Anything you are choosing to let go of???