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What Not To Worry About #35

Hello old friends. How have you been? Staying dry and praying for the long awaited Indian summer I hope? I’m sorry for the silence on this little space the last fortnight or so. I feel like an irresponsible parent as I have gallivanted across Indonesian islands with barely enough time to post on Instagram let alone write (and that’s sayin’ somethin’). Oh but what a time I had without fretting once about work or the blog or anything at all really (apart from where my next margarita was coming from which is a genuine reason to fret I think).

I have lots of stories to share from our time in Bali and the other wee islands we hopped across and there are hundreds of photos waiting for me to edit which is freakin’ me out a little I must say. More so because I’ll be constantly reminded that the holiday was real and not a dream and, more devastatingly, all over. The post-holiday blues are a privileged mixture of emotions because how lucky are we to even experience the longing for a place we were fortunate enough to even visit? But these emotions also remind me that I am a real adult with real responsibilities and real annual leave which only goes so far in accommodating my dreams of being a globe-trotting goddess. So back down to earth I have arrived and with a bang, I’ll tell you. The rain was horizontally howling at me as I stepped off the plane in Belfast, taunting and teasing me as if sensing my immediate disdain for it. We arrived home and emptied our suitcases in to our tiny kitchen, swamping the floors so we could no longer see the tiles. My herbs have died too. I had asked my lovely (and untrustworthy it turns out) neighbours to water them while we were gone but instead we were greeted with a very sad-looking (and dead-looking) herbarium along with a note apologizing for forgetting to water them. They did leave us little welcome home gifts – a loaf of bread and a carton of milk in the fridge and so their thoughtlessness was instantly forgiven for their thoughtfulness. Although we’ll be asking Maureen to water our plants next time. Aside from mourning my holiday and my rapidly diminishing tan, there really isn’t much that is greatly worrying me within my life at the moment. Of course there are the greater troubles in the world (global warming, the Great Pacific Garbage patch, Trump, countless wars, countless children that are needlessly starving across the world, families with no access to clean water, the inequalities and exploitation of vulnerable people as a result of the decisions of strangers) but this weekly post of mine focuses on not the big worries which we can attempt to improve in our own little ways (post on this coming soon) but instead on the unnecessary worries we have or the niggling thoughts that we torture ourselves with which serve no purpose other than to grind us down. We deserve better than to be our own enemy. We should always be on our own side, fighting our own corner and above all, liking who we are. With that in mind, here are the few silly worries that I am letting go of this week… The fact that the penultimate Game of Thrones is over We watched the last episode in our apartment in Bali (I have no shame in admitting this!) and I’m now crushed at the thought of waiting a whole year to the next one. I need a new series to sink my teeth in to – suggestions please?! In the meantime I have my weekly instalments of GBBO that will tide me over for a little while more so because I adore Noel Fielding and fully appreciate seeing him in his patterned shirts making jokes about muffins. Realising that I have to wait another 4 months before I can plan another holiday After a trip to a TBEX conference in Kerry in October, my annual leave has been reduced to diddly squat. I have been dreaming what our next big trip should be and after reading this article, I have decided that it should definitely involve a road trip with me eating my way through the southern states. I already know that New Orleans will seduce me with her beignets and beads! Heights I am terrified of them and have this weird urge to throw myself of something high which both terrifies and fascinates me. When we were on holidays we descended a metal staircase attached to a cliff to reach the bottom where a temple was built in to the rocks. I was so scared because I could see through the steps to see the waves crashing violently below. I did it though and felt proud that I conquered another fear and then I read this article and thought: Dude must be mental. Being crap at sticking to my goals I’m not one for New Year’s resolutions as it creates too much pressure especially in the peak of winter when just about everything is harder. I think September is the best month to revisit the goals I want to achieve and I’m not alone in this. Check this piece out for a little autumnal goal inspiration. My photography skills I always feel a little frustrated after a holiday because I worry that I didn't take enough photos, didn't really capture the moments that truly moved me when I was there. This holiday we both took so many photos, poor Andrew having to deal with me orchestrating so many for fear of missing a good opportunity - the man deserves a medal! However none of them compare to this amazing collection of travel photos that have inspired me to keep up the work and push myself even further. Wishing you all a lovely week!!
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I'm Alex, the writer, photographer and creator of The Full Shilling. I started writing as a way to share all my favourite places in Ireland and the list just keeps growing! My aim is that you'll find somewhere new to explore and you'll make some great memories along the way. Happy reading!

35 Comments

  • Alex Donnelly
    4 years ago

    Thanks Amy! I'm feeling a bit more settled now especially on the days when the sun decides to appear like today!

  • Amy Woman
    4 years ago

    Sounds like you had an amazing trip and i think more people should step away from social media when they are away and just enjoy the moment for what it is.

    Post travelling blues are always miserable so i hope you settled back home in rainy Belfast quickly x

  • Alex Donnelly
    4 years ago

    We're just going to have to find other series to keep us going! I've been watching the new series of Dr. Foster - oh my goodness it is so addictive!

  • Kirsty Dee
    4 years ago

    Ah, I'm sorry about your plants. Glad you had an amazing time though, holiday blues suck but as you say it's such a privilege to go away. Ah, another year for Game of Thrones that makes me sad lolz.

  • Alex Donnelly
    4 years ago

    I like your thinking Nicky! Will have to get planning now :)

  • Alex Donnelly
    4 years ago

    Thanks Niki! Even a few sunny days would be could before the dark evenings draw in. Fingers crossed for this indian summer!

  • Alex Donnelly
    4 years ago

    Thanks Rachel! It was super scary but the views were totally worth it!

  • Jacinta
    4 years ago

    We loved Bali too. It was amazing. I don't think we're going to see even a hint of Indian summer. I've got my winter wardrobe out. Sad about Game of Thrones too.

  • Nicky
    4 years ago

    4 months until you can plan another holiday?? Noooo! You could plan plenty in that time and it space out the dates!

  • Niki
    4 years ago

    Your trip sounds amazing. Unfortunately the weather has just dramatically turned with lots of rain lately but your probably feeling it more. An Indian summer would be fab. September/October there is always a glimmer of hope.
    Also, your photos are also beautiful so you have nothing to worry about. I never thought I had a height fear until I did go ape and struggled.

  • Rachel Pages
    4 years ago

    I can totally empathise with the heights thing. That must have been terrifying, well done you!!

  • Alex Donnelly
    4 years ago

    Oh no Emma that's terrible! Book another holiday ASAP to keep you going. Hope your foot is better soon!

  • Alex Donnelly
    4 years ago

    Thanks for reading Meghan, glad it might have helped a little!

  • Alex Donnelly
    4 years ago

    Thanks Beth! Always good to fierce our fears I reckon!

  • Alex Donnelly
    4 years ago

    Oh I know, we're so lucky to live in such a friendly neighbourhood especially since we live in a city. Always so nice to know we can rely on those around us :)

  • Emma And Me
    4 years ago

    I'm in the same position post holiday missing my tan and the time away, especially as I broke my foot on holiday and the last few days were spent in a wheelchair. I need another getaway!

  • Meghan
    4 years ago

    I love the thought behind this post! We're all human and have worries, even if they aren't "big" worries. I'm a worrier by nature and will be trying to let things go a little this week. Thanks!

  • Beth BethinaBox.com
    4 years ago

    We have so much to worry about these days that it's good to let the worries go sometimes. Well done on facing your fear of heights!

  • Vanessa
    4 years ago

    I'm glad your neighbours thoughtfulness outweighed their thoughtlessness - it's lovely that you have neighbours that you can ask (even if they forget)

  • Alex Donnelly
    4 years ago

    I know but I'm hoping the change in seasons might motivate me a little! Definitely won't last though!

  • Alex Donnelly
    4 years ago

    Ooohh, must check Strike out!

  • Alex Donnelly
    4 years ago

    Oh I hear you with the tears, I cried zip lining at a friends hen earlier this year! But go us for going for it anyway!

  • Alex Donnelly
    4 years ago

    Aw thanks Sara!!

  • Alex Donnelly
    4 years ago

    I know it's a bit frustrating but even the ones that aren't the best you had hoped for are still little snapshots of memories you'll never forget. You just need to book the next adventure to try again!

  • Alex Donnelly
    4 years ago

    Aw thank you Eva! I've been enjoying the editing so much, hopefully it will keep me going through this dark and dreary nights!

  • Alex Donnelly
    4 years ago

    I think you're right Fiona, now indian summer for us this year! Let's prepare ourselves for lots of brisk mornings and cosy evenings!

  • Alex Donnelly
    4 years ago

    Thanks Emma! Book that next holiday ASAP!

  • Rox Snedeker
    4 years ago

    "Being crap at sticking to my goals" is definitely one for the books, its a nice idea to have goals and all, but having the discipline to actually sticking to them is super hard!

  • Katie Halsall
    4 years ago

    I'm still sad that Game of Thrones has ended! Completely different kind of show, but I've just started Strike (on BBC) and I'm really loving it!

  • Five Doves
    4 years ago

    Well done you on conquering your fear of heights! I am TERRIFIED of heights, like literally go into melt down and can't cope, but I did Go Ape recently and although there were tears, I felt amazing after!

  • Sara Mumturnedmom
    4 years ago

    I love the idea of these posts :) I'm with you on the heights, although I definitely don't have a hankering to throw myself off anything high... that staircase sounds terrifying, go you! And, having just had a look at your instagram, I don't think you have anything to worry about on the photography front!

  • Jenni
    4 years ago

    wow how exciting to be exploring Indonesia I am planning a trip next year. I have just got back from Asia and looking at my 1000+ photos only a handful are actually any good so like you I also feel a little frustrated but I am getting better, it takes time so keep snapping away and enjoy making memories

  • Eva Katona
    4 years ago

    Your photography skills are great - I told you this on Insta too ? Try to use the Bali memories to charge up from time to time? Sorry for your Herbs though.

  • Fiona
    4 years ago

    Sounds like you had a great trip. I've given up hope of an indian summer this year. Yep, absolutely let go. I think this year's summer ship has definitely gone and sailed. Here's to next summer!

  • Emma Suburbs
    4 years ago

    I can totally empathise with ALL of your worries this week. I'll try and let go of them too - though worrying about where my next holiday is coming from will be the hardest. Glad you had a lovely stress free time while you were away.

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